“Shatanuga”

It’s a long story (that I promise to get into once I get my laptop and have some free time) but the guy that recommended me to this job in Nashville is kind of a douchecanoe. I’ve known that from the beginning because when we worked together we ALWAYS butted heads. Anyway, so yeah, he’s a douche, but not only that, he’s also a douche that thinks he knows everything. We are both of Hispanic descent, but I’ve always been more Mexican rooted and embrace my “Mexicanness” (totally just made that word up) to the max, he claims he is only American. Whatevs, no biggie, IT’S NOT LIKE YOUR FIRST, MIDDLE AND LAST NAME ARE ALL IN SPANISH, DIPSHIT. AND BOTH YOUR PARENTS ARE FROM MEXICO CITY. (And honestly, if you saw him, there’s just no denying that kind of shit.) ANYWAY, his English isn’t always the greatest and because he refuses to admit that there’s so much Mexican culture in him, I find this shit amusing. So, when he refers to the city of Chattanooga, TN his (very Hispanic) ass says “Shat-a-nuga” yup, exactly how you read it, that’s how he says it. So I had a shit day at work today and honestly, I just didn’t want to come home, so I went out with him, another coworker and his wife. It was eh. To lighten up my mood and make the night a success, my goal was to get this fucker to say “Shatanuga” as many times as possible. He said it NINE times. Each time funnier than the last. I was so close to the ten, but I think he was on to me by the end of the night haha. So yeah, this is my life in Nashville. Shat-a-nuga!

Hello, is there anybody in there?

Just nod if you can hear me.

I’m so sick of dealing with stupid, lazy-ass motherfuckers who refuse to take this (or any) job seriously. I get it, we all like to fuck around and yes, I do it often—shit, I’m doing it right now—but its not an excuse to completely disregard my duties around the fucking office. I’ve seen this type before, the person that pretends he’s a complete and utter imbecile and because he can’t do his job properly they pass it on to the next person in line. More work for me, awesome. Thanks, lazy fuck.

Not only that, what kind of company hires people like this? Never mind that, what kind of company KEEPS THEM AROUND?! These are people that have been here longer than I have and they still manage to have a job. I bust my fucking ass every day, for what? I might as well fake stupidity and get ahead of the game, no? What is this shit about? I am so sick of people like this getting ahead so quick. Without the least amount of respect for … anything, really.

How does this happen? And how did I get here? Am I stuck because I proved (once again) that I work and pour myself into the job? How do I get out now? How do I move ahead? Clearly working hard isn’t the way out. What do I have to do now? I feel like I’ve paid my fucking dues but I’ve gotten nothing in return. I’ve been working since I was fucking 15 years-old. I’ve had the shittiest of bosses, the worst co-workers and the lamest of jobs, but I have always, ALWAYS, given it my all. What the fuck do I have to do to find a fucking job that will appreciate my work? Not just a job, a fucking career. A life that I enjoy.

Freelance is good, but it won’t pay the bills. (Don’t get me fucking started on how people refuse to invest in good design/marketing around here.) I just wish I knew where this is taking me. What is this leading up to? I am .. angry and frustrated and just … lost. I feel lost. But mostly angry. I might have to punch someone.

you ever get the feeling that everyone is growing up and moving on and you are never going to get there?

screamingfemale:

yeah, it’s the worst.

At least you’re not alone. I feel the exact same way.